white papers

Regarding that I have lots of thoughts lurking in my head that I want to write about, and in the same time I think ... no that's enough as an intro ..

I recall some info I read two years ago in a book of( Ann Mahony ) entitled ( hand writing and personality - how hand writing reveals what makes people tick ) that who writes on white papers - no printed lines - has the courage to dodge the unknown and explore new stuff and places on the other hand who places lined paper under the white papers as a guide feel insecure ..

The point that I wasn't able to write on the white paper, so I used to write on lined sheets .. this year, just two days ago I consumed my last lined sheet and I was forced to use printing papers (obviously not lined) so I took some of it and went to my college .. and there I found that the hardship I used to find in writing on the white sheets is miraculously gone .. and it's just like any paper

This is among lots of things that happened lately in a clear noticeable way that answered a question I used to ask my self when I was reading that book

If the personality changed will the handwriting correspondingly change to match the new personality ?!!

The Answer came practical and Cristal Clear

Chilling around ? nah ..

Most of the time spent sitting down doing nothing is a pleasant experience, but I came to know that it's not Absolute ..

When I take a day or so chilling around it feels pointless .. things that usually make me have fun and relax, have nothing of that effect without Real World .. I mean work or study or other serious stuff. I have to be pissed off at some problem, stressed by some home work, tired or just finished something .. that way relaxing feels great ..

Like when you go to bed when you are a train wreck who would be satisfied by any Horizontal position, that phase is the most amazing, lovely and deep sleep ever ..

I'm facing my self with this fact, but not in my mother language .. maybe cause it would bee too confronting to read it in Arabic .. It would be as if it's alive

This maybe my way of denial

In the middle of all the winter weather ..... I feel the Heat